I can't really say much. I mean, what would you expect?
I'm a sudden accomplice to the times yet I want no publicity!
I really don't know what I "feel". It is odd every time someone asks. There's so many things going through my head, I don't know how to spit the words out. In the end I'm happy. Happy that you have no sour feelings that I know of, that we are good friends, great friends, what do you call it? At this point it might not be smart to say some things just in the sense that I shouldn't. But all the same I'm never really too sure. My little worry there is the one where I don't want to push a button or fuck everything up just because I'm being stupid. Please know I am struggling for words.
There is many a wishful thought as to life as we know it. A lot of which I'm not sure you would take seriously just because it's a common phrase among desperate people and posers. Hopefully with this you know I am not. I wish for the great openness that we talked about at the rink. The fact that there isn't as many strings attached so that you feel more secure. I wish to have this damned picture in my head to be real where you honestly can feel safe
around me and tell me what is on your mind. Maybe so I could help. Maybe so I could console you. Maybe I'm just dreaming...
Why?
Ha, well this is the hardest question you've asked me yet.
Why do I care? Or maybe, why so much?
These questions head right into the confused mess of my thoughts and I can never give you a clear answer.
Now that I look back at what I just typed, I sound like i'm trying to hard to just say that I just do care.
Be I a friend, less than a friend, or more than a friend in your eyes, I want you to understand that there is a distance for every path and that every path has hardships, no matter what.
I wish to be there so that we can endure the hardships, even if there is no title to my name. It doesn't matter, it never should. Sure, like you said, there may be another time in the future. But I'm not goaling for that, I'm not here for materials, titles, or benefits. I just want you to feel warm, safe. A shoulder to lean on, if you will.

THAT is what I mean when I say I want you to be happy.
And I mean every word.

Lend me your thoughts, I would more than like to talk, discuss, (haha, if we're lucky, maybe agree a little )
Vennlig hilsen~Dav